I’m tired dying
Moving slow
Feeling low
Actin like I got no place to go.
But it’s hard out here
Where loves got
Billions of different definitions
And potential lovers
are being gunned down
Every Otha minute
Just for living while black.
In the crypt before their time
Trynna forced me to let go of what I know
In my gut as truth
For options that honestly
Ain’t too appetizing. So I starve.
I’m tired of dyin.
These days I got it togetha
Yet they hella lifted,
They waiting, yeah they hoping
A homie fails
Goes back to the unworthy
Shit is reckless.
Energy got me trynna
Skip to new tune
And I ain’t trynna have all that.
Yeah I’m skipping steps
To this process;
It’s gotten easier
As I’ve come to know myself.
See I’ve been through worse
So I have an idea of what’s better.
But don’t get it confused
It don’t mean imma settle,
If anything lovin me is harder,
That’s what happens when you have standards,
When self love can only recognize self love
In another
Cuz building you up ain’t what I’m here for.
You gotta do that yourself,
Cuz only two wholes
Can stand true together.
Jari G. Planning 