1. It allows me to have a clearer mind.
  2. It allows me to slow down.
  3. I physically feel lighter.
  4. I’ve become more aware of my interactions with people.

3 Ways Breathing Helps Me

When I find myself beginning to struggle through a triggering moment, I will consciously stop what I am doing and take my first deep breath.

1) the first breath always helps to calm the anxiety/excitement that I am feeling. #breathe #repeat

2) my second breath helps to slow down any racing thoughts. #breathe #repeat

3) my last breath makes it easier for me to listen & remain present. #breathe #repeat

Day 27th: When Ignorance Comes Knocking.

she said, “i have been quiet about you two, but now i have had enough.”

i said, ” what? I don’t know what you’ve been told, but clearly someone has misscommunicated something, because lets be clear…what??”

inner me said, “bitch, I am not you! I don’t suck on guy’s dicks when their trying to get back with their partners to then sit there and say Oh Im just his friend.” 

inner inner me said, “first off, who the fuck are you? this trick has lost her damn mind. God come get her, because she really don’t even understand what she did to herself.”

the womyn that found growth laughed until she cried. Why? Because after breathing in the annoyance and breathing out the stupidity we realized that only someone so insecure, where there are clearly issues unrelated to me going on, hell bent on PROJECTING THEIR LIVED BEHAVIOR to then justify how they act or what they say is honestly really sad. so we said, “fuck being mad. if this hoe wants to think that im going to move in the way she does then shes out of her freakin mind, because im too good, too blessed, to up on this ride to sink too low where my presence doesn’t belong.  

the womyn that find growth reminds us that as you level up there will be those that will wish they came up along with you. she reminds us that there will be those trying to put on you how they have lived in the world. she reminds us that 1) don’t let anyone put their own inner crap on you, 2) not everyone needs to be or can be around for the come up, and 3) you will meet a lot of people who are unhappy with themselves, who can’t stand your brilliant shine, but its cool; keep shining beautiful, because we don’t need to give ourselves titles when the way we choose to move and live builds a kingdom for us instead. 

Day 15: For Them.

I am Grateful to the friends who don’t take offense, because we can call each other out with love and compassion when we aren’t feeling our best and show up in those ways.

I’m grateful to the ease in which we can say no, because we appreciate the love and kindness that rests in being able to say it.

I’m grateful for being able to reset when I need to, because this is a lifelong commitment to practice the values I wish to Embody most.

I’m grateful for the encouraged individuality, sharing of similarities, and creative innovation + bravery to transform into the people whom we want to be.

I’m grateful for the all the work already in process. We are in it. In this moment, I am greater than who I was and with every layer of me that comes undone letting go of the tension that lives in my bones; I’m able to move with the grace like the water that makes up my composition.

I am my own tempest, and it’s scary sometimes, but courage is my friend and faith is what brought me to fruition.